I didn't understand

I didn't understand he is my part
I din't understand it is my dream
I didn't know it is so hard.
To understand what he is mean.

I wait him all nights and days.
I really want to meet him.
I always want him to say
"I love you"/ This is my dream.

I don't belive he loves me more
I think he hate me? like I want.
I know that he is close his door/
And I ask him:"What for".

I can't change me.
I can't stop love...
But not love him
Is not main